Wednesday, September 29, 2010


Today, I consider a good day. 

Only had one slip up today which was eating dark choc chips after lunch.  At least it wasn't a candy bar.  I feel good about today, lots accomplished for work and feel like I did several things healthy.

jogged this morning, did an Ab workout
ate healthier food - clean eating
took dogs for a walk in the evening

I also took the time to add all the torn out pages of recipes from the Clean Eating Magazine into a 3 ring binder.  I'm hoping to go through one a week and pull out a few to plan for the week. 

On GMA this morning, they had the cheapest family in America.  They spend $350 a month on groceries for FIVE people.  We easily spend that for the two of us.  The main thing they talked about was planning.  So, my binder was my attempt to plan.  We'll see :)

What makes THIS time different?

I don’t know if this time is different. I truly hope it is. Over the summer I watched the Family channel show Huge about teens at a fat camp. The season finale had a scene where the camp counselor says to the teen that losing weight allows her to not hate herself “as much”. For some reason this scene haunts me.

While I’m not as overweight as the teens on the show, I do relate and have 15-20 pounds to lose. I’ve been maintaining within 5-7 lbs but when I get down just can’t keep it down. Do I hate myself? What would losing the weight “do” for me? Why can’t I commit?

So, here I am with the desire to “eat clean” and get back to working out hard. I’ve pulled out the recent issue of Clean Eating magazine and know I have plenty of tv to watch while on my treadmill. Now, I just need to DO-IT! Can I? Will I?